I circled the date on my calendar in red and gulped. I really didn’t want to do this but I’d canceled once already and knew I needed to make this appointment. Again. Ugh. I closed my eyes as my constant companion for the past 30 years of my life, nausea, barreled into my consciousness. The date was two weeks away but already I felt a familiar feeling of dread and the telltale signs of a desperate need to hurl. Nearly crippled by fear, I demanded the immediate departure of my tears as they wrapped their salty, liquid fingers around my throat, stifling my voice.
I swallowed hard. “Breathe, Wanda, just breathe,” I reminded myself. Several deep breaths later, I began to mentally prepare myself for the appointment. I reminded myself of the things I’d learned over the past eleven years since my intensive PTSD treatment and subsequent intensive study of the human brain.
Here’s the thing: Triggers do not discriminate and they create an illusion of power. However, I’ve learned that triggers can be rendered powerless if I process them in a way that returns power to the parts of myself that feel most powerless. My intensive trauma therapy taught me right-brain strategies that helped re-engage the dual brain (right/left brain) disconnection that occurs during trauma.
Medical appointments have always been some of the most triggering events of my ‘regular’ life.
~ People in close proximity to my body.
~ People touching me.
~ Questions I can’t answer.
~ An inability to track the conversation.
People with PTSD are notoriously bad medical historians because most are like me: physically present for the exam, but Wanda HAS LEFT THE BUILDING. Because I was not able to process the trauma around the triggers, only half of me would show up for appointments – the dissociative part that had NO memory of past medical issues or concerns. Here is where an informed medical community can step in and help with a few simple actions.
Today my story is different. Through years of practice and study, I have learned some helpful ways to lessen (and in some cases eliminate) triggers during a doctor visit.
6 Tips To Prepare to See a New Doctor
- WRITE A LETTER TO YOUR DOCTOR
This is SOP (standard operating procedure) for me. Consider writing a letter to your new doctor prior to your visit explaining that you live with PTSD/trauma triggers, what that means, and that there are certain things they can do to help alleviate/eliminate some of the triggers/responses during your visit. For me, as soon as I confirm an appointment with a new doctor, I send a letter letting them know how they can assist me in making this a successful appointment for both the doctor and I.
- DO YOUR RESEARCH
Find out WHO your doctor is. Online reviews really DO matter and can help you feel safer and more at ease. It can also give you an opportunity to ascertain if this particular doctor/practice/procedure has the potential to be a triggering experience and if so, how to navigate that minefield (see grounding techniques).
- ASK FOR AN ADVANCE VISIT
For certain, more difficult appointments (mammogram/gynecological/intrusive procedures) ask for an advance visit. Several years ago I had a particular appointment I was nervous about. Okay, I was SCARED.The group practice offered to let me come in to visit the facility ahead of my actual appointment to SEE that it was NOT a place I needed to fear and to get familiar with the surroundings there. It was hugely helpful in the success of my appointment a week later.
- ASK QUESTIONS
Write down any questions you have in advance of your appointment. It was always helpful for me to have a piece of paper on my bedside table or on my desk and just keep adding to it every time I thought of a new question or concern. Again, this takes the pressure off of you to remember details that could be challenging to remember in a stressful situation.
- DO THE THINGS
Make sure you’re fed, watered and well-rested. These high anxiety situations can wreak havoc on our stress levels and cause undue triggers resulting in goofy and sometimes harmful behavior. I found deep breathing techniques worked well for me even as I sat in the waiting room waiting for my name to be called.
- PHONE A FRIEND
It’s always helpful to have someone else hear the doctor’s words. Taking a close friend can help you be sure you remember the right details about your medical history and what you need to follow through on when you get home.
Do you have anything that you do to prepare yourself for a visit to a new doctor to reduce anxiety/triggers? Please share in the comments.